Today I went back to the GP and he suggested a new anti-depressant for me Valdoxan (agomelatine). Apparently it is completely different and unrelated to SSRIs, SNRIs etc so it may not cause the problems I've experienced on those meds. So today I'm quitting Cymbalta and after a couple of days I can start the new one.

I also saw my boss and he has taken on board the Occupational Health report and has agreed to suspend the attendance management proceedings that had been started, so I won't have to go to silly meetings asking when I am going to be better.

At the start of the week I felt so alone and unheard, now I feel that maybe the bad environment around me has changed enough to give me breathing space. I'm still not ready to hope, but I will co-operate and give the new meds a chance.

There is one fly in the ointment. I'm bleeding again and the drug I need to take to stop that affects my mood very badly. I'm hoping to delay taking it for a couple more days (until I've swapped anti-depressants) but I don't think that's a realistic option. So in the short term I might get worse again. If that happens I'm hoping that someone reading this will be objective and remind me that it will be a short-term reaction. Thank you for all your words of encouragement and support.