There is some disagreements and petty arguing going on within a certain situation I use to be part off. I was always the one to be in the thick of it. Had to fight my last stand constantly.

I've walked away from this situaiton but news has got to me that the same ole petty arguing is still going on. Part of me is pulling me to go back and "fight" but part of me this time wants to just let it go. It never resolves itself it just goes round and round. This week the disagreements is about this or that and then everyone kisses and makes up then a couple weeks later it goes of again but this time about something else.

Its avery dysfunctional pattern but I feel so used to being part of it that I feel something in me is missing by walking away. I don't think its a bad feeling I have by missing this part of me, but its srange, it almost makes me feel light head but also makes me cringe when I see the maddness of how it was!

I'm sorry to be vague about details, I just feel almost guilty as well because I can sense the space is waiting for me to jump straight back into the dysfuntional situation but I don't want to know more. Its pointless.

Why does it feel so odd when we walk away from this types of situations? why does it feel like a loss? yes thats it, i feel i've lost a part of myself but I know its so much better this way. I guess it just takes time to adjust????