I hope I am not wearing everybody out. I feel like I post too much but I really have no one else I can talk to who understands. I still want to find a different job. But I want to find a job that I can do within reason. I don't want to go from one stressbox into another. I am hanging on the best I can in my present situation. I would like to find a therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist whether I can afford one or not. I don't seem to be getting better on psych meds alone (citalopram and buspirone). On my current job it would be very difficult to take off work regularly to go to therapy and once the head bosses find out I am in psychotherapy I will lose my job. And trust me, they will find out. I work in a place where everybody knows everybody's business. Last night my husband saw how distressed I was and he told me to just quit my job. It's hard to just quit when he doesn't have a steady job. I feel stuck. I don't quite know what to do but I know I need professional psychological help.