Today (5/30) will be my 5th day taking zoloft. I had gotten very depressed a few months ago after my life started going downhill. My grades dropped, family members got ill, and I was/am getting chastised/ostracized by my family for dating outside of my race and not waiting until marriage (which was to be arranged) to bed someone.
I started on 50mg of Zoloft per recommendation of my new gp (I had to get a new doctor because i'm 19 and couldnt see my old gp that worked primarily with kids anymore). I've been reading a lot of stories online posted by zoloft users about how awful a time they had.

If this SSRI causes me to gain weight i'll have an even bigger reason to be depressed (I'd definitely **** myself if I get bigger than I already am. I am disgustingly large as is! I've gotten compliments on my figure by people but I think my pear shape is nasty, and wish I was smaller. Even when I work out I dont get any smaller).

So I've also read that Zoloft can turn people into aggressive murderers as a side effect.

So far the side effects ive experienced are: nauseous, weakness in my limbs about an hour after I take it, and dry mouth. It seems like it already started making my depression worse. The day that It got prescribed I was feeling a lot better than before I talked to my doctor about it, but now i feel extremely low again. I've started worrying a lot lately (but i supposed it's because i'm putting a chemical into my body and as a neuroscience major i know they dont work that well for many people)

And honestly, I kind of want to quit it already because I don't want to be dependent on antidepressants for the rest of my life.