I'm feeling similar to you too, especially a couple of weeks back And it's okay to be tired of trying. Take a week off and just indulge in nothingness. People don't realise how HARD it is to have this thing sometimes, so don't worry if you need to take a break from trying to get better. It doesn't mean that you've failed, it means you're human.

I'm also in the process of trying to find a treatment that works... Waiting for meds to kick in etc. It can be a long process for some of us and others they find something right away. It can be a real pain in the ***

Hang in there! We're here for you