...but I can't think what else to do, I can't keep it to myself any more, but I can't tell anyone in real life either, I'm too ashamed. So here goes...

Yesterday, when I was having a driving practice with my dad (I've been learning to drive since November), I ran a red light. Only by about half a second - I saw it going to amber but there was a car behind me and I thought I was going too fast and wouldn't be able to stop (looking back, I probably would have been able to - I just wasn't thinking straight), so I went straight through, only it turned to red just before I got there. Dad tried telling me that it wasn't a big deal (probably so I'd concentrate on getting us both home - I was practically panicking), but I didn't believe him so I looked it up when I got home...it's illegal!! I broke the law I can't believe it I'm scared I don't want to be a criminal I don't want to lose my licence before I've even got a proper one but it's my fault all my fault I'd deserve it if I did stupid stupid stupid...

People who run red lights cause accidents it could have been really dangerous I feel terrible I should feel terrible I'm a %#@&#! disgrace...