I would be so confused. I know it is hard but you should let him know that you are getting conflicting messages from him. I would also feel very rejected. You need to tell him exactly how you are feeling. I have decided that the whole process is just beyond humiliating. I am so sorry that things are not coming together for you. Insurance is a whole other issue. I just don't understand why insurance is so difficult over therapy. Our emotional state affects every aspect of our life including our physical health. They really need to look at like preventative. I know for myself - I have gotten so out of whack emotionally that I let my physical body go and ended up in the hospital. Maybe if they would pay for the therapy - they wouldn't end up with a huge medical bill. I don't mean to go on it just makes me so angry. We try and try and every corner there is a needless roadblock. Hang in there.