speaking of meds, my goodness!!!! 1200mg lithium,5-6 zanax per day for the anxiety and150 mg trazodone(antidepressant also helps with my sleeping) That's 10 pills a day!! I never really took anything stronger then tylenol.Some days I fell as if they aren't even working but I figured out I would be worse off without them. I also feel like some times I am in denial still and it is everyone else that is just out to get me going. Is that normal??