hello...
it's been (how long i didnt come here?)..

2 years..i hid this problem..and now i really can't hold it anymore..

i'm a male..but the inside of me is a female..i don't know how i describe it but i'm sure the inside me is a female.

i really want to let my mom know this.but i'm afraid i would hurt her as my religion also prevents me to be a trans.

i gave every signs that might help me to let her know indirectly like my hairstyle, how i sit, my expression, and how i take care of my body.

but i got nothing!.she didnt realize me!

it's hard to make a letter since i always cried when i want to tell her.it's like a fear of being rejected!

i have several scheme how it might ends.either being totally rejected, accepted with terms i should be a straight girl, or totally accepted as a "L".

i also wants to change my name..but i also in doubt if she accept it or not

please help me!.i want this stressful things ended soon