we all go through this frustration but it's important to stay on meds, keep in touch w/your pdoc (if you have one), communicate w/loved ones & it's helpful to go on this message board (for me). I like reading books by people who have bipolar disorder, like Patty Duke, Kay Redfield Jamison & others when I'm able to concentrate on reading. Then that info' stays in my mind during bad times, as encouragement.