For a couple of weeks now I have been going down hill. Depression has been pulling me in, it wanted to take me. I was so sick yesterday. I wanted to die. What do I do? How do I stop this? Do I want to stop it? I had no answers to any of these questions but I knew if I stayed by myself it would be over. Depression would win. Last few days I posted on Psych Central got a lot of care and thoughtful responses. I Thank everyone for that. And yesterday I went in to my psychologist office. They have a public puzzle to work on there. I sat there working on this puzzle until I felt better. I said Hi how you doing to a few people. But inside I wanted to be dead, I just wanted to cry. I was so sick. But I sat it out, I sat right there fighting my depression in front of god and everyone. Not one person noticed. But I knew if I need it (help) they would be all over it. My clinic is awesome. I talked to my psychologist today. Told him about my week including what happened yesterday. He told me I should have asked for help but I did the right thing by going in there to break the thoughts of ending my life. So when you are at rock bottom don't be alone. Break depressions hold on you by getting your mind on something else. I myself don't have family to go to. So I have to call a hot line, go to a clinic, go to the hospital, go for a walk, post on Psych Central. Do anything that you can do to break depressions goal. Thanks again to everyone.