Hello Tavares: This is my first time in the Men's Forum. I don't typically post, or reply to posts, here. This is because, although my birth gender is male & I've always lived as a male, my gender identity is & has always been female.

I'm in my 60's now; & when I was young, no one I knew had ever heard of such conditions as transgender, transsexual, and so forth. Or, if they did, they never talked about it. I learned very early in my life, I don't know how, that this was something I must never talk about. And so I kept the secret for many decades & just felt weird & perverted. (I have a bunch of posts in the Transgender Forum about my history if you're interested.)

Anyway, I wanted to reply to your post because I know something about this topic as do others who've replied to your post. You've already received some good advice from several other PC members. I want to address your written concerns directly.

First of all, you will NOT need to be institutionalized! Nowadays the only people who are "institutionalized" are convicted criminals. They are sent to prison. So, as long as you don't turn to a life of crime, you needn't worry about institutionalization.

You mentioned you'll be seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist. Perhaps you already have at this point. Psychiatrists typically just prescribe medications. Psychologists talk with you about your mental health struggles & try to help you to resolve them or learn ways to adapt. So, depending on which type of professional you are seeing, you will probably have a different experience. If you're seeing a psychiatrist now, I hope that arrangements can be made for you to also see a psychologist or another type of therapist. It's going to be important for you to have someone to talk with about your concerns. And, as another PC'er here said, it's important to be honest about your concerns with this person.

As other commenters have written here, there's nothing to be ashamed of here. Many men enjoy wearing women's clothing. You didn't say if your parents know of your love of women's underwear. If not, perhaps a psychologist or other type of therapist can help you to figure out a way to tell them, if you feel you can. This would make it much easier to buy & care for your clothes. If this is not an option, then it becomes a question of if you have enough money buy what you want.

I think the important thing here is that you figure out a way to acquire the lingerie you want without having to sneak around & get it any way you can from anyone. This is the thing that is going to cause you ongoing guilt & make you feel like you're at risk of becoming a predator. When you can just march into the store & buy what you want you won't have that guilt. It may feel a bit uncomfortable the 1st few times you do it. But after a while you won't think twice about it... I guarantee. You can also shop on-line if you prefer.

The last thing I want to bring up is with regard to your sexual orientation & gender identity. You don't mention anything about this in your post. But I have to believe that a 16 year old young man who feels he has a fetish for women's underwear, must have some questions regarding what this means in terms of his sexual orientation & / or gender identity. These are also good topics to discuss with your psychologist or therapist. I know the embarrassment and confusion that I felt as a teenager over my sexuality & gender identity problems not understanding what was going on with me & having no one to talk to.

So, with that, I will wish you the very best. Should you wish to correspond further with regard to this, I'd be glad to do so with you. Feel free to Private Message me.