AmyFed07. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with right now. I understand this may not be the easiest or best time for a pregnancy. But I honor your decision not to have an abortion. I agree every child deserves a chance. You never know, this child may turn out to be such a special, wonderful person. My heart goes out to you since you have had so much to deal with. You can message me anytime you like. Best of wishes.