I have to agree with BipolaRNurse. You do need to get some help with this. Ya can't do it alone. When I was right in the middle of my illness everything came crashing down. I lost everything. I was living on someones couch for 7 months and it certainly wasn't what I was a custom to.

I had some really good therapy and I was able to slowly start rebuild my life. It took some time but so well worth it. I was pretty messed up a few years ago and to see where my life could be was unimaginable. I made it. I still can't work yet but I'm hopeful for the future. I've learned how to be patient and go with the flow, for the most part. I still really struggle with this disorder but I'm learning how to manage.

Don't let this get far from you.. If I would have been able to be more aware, none of this would have happened. I didn't catch it because I didn't know and I was trying to keep my career in check and try and stay focused. It became impossible. You gotta catch it.