At this point I'd rather have him back on my friendslist so that could possibly happen, but its too late now. Thanks for replying though.

I'll probably take a little break from gaming, or at least from team fortress 2 so I won't have to be reminded of things (or wind up joining a server he happens to be in again on accident). Time heals most wounds though, I know I'll get to the point where this no longer bothers me, but in the meantime I'll just try to preoccupy myself with other things.


Yeah, thats him alright. Hes not a confident person and has trouble speaking his mind so when things got too much for him, instead of coming out and telling me about it he let it build up until it stressed him out to the point where he couldnt deal with it anymore. He told me that he had been secretly wanting to end the friendship for a long time now but kept things going in the hopes that they would get better. They would of gotten better if he had just said something before now. These issues that bothered him though are no longer a problem for me, I told him as much in that last message but it didnt sway his decision, even though I wish it had. I find myself going back and pinpointing all the times where I could of done something differently but I cant go back in time and change anything. I just have to deal with things as they are now.