Thanks doglover. I dont have bipolar. I dont get manic. Its interesting that bipolars have the same thing. Mine dissipates when I remember. I will flashback, usually to a new aspect of the experience, and feel exhausted but good and peaceful.

Truth be told there is another element of this. It is "I dont want to know". Its an awful lot like "i dont want to throw up". When something has to come up its so much better to just toss it than to sit around dreading it.