My fiancé told me today that he isn't sure if he can handle me never being happy or if I'm still going to be unhappy if I'm not at my current job. My current job is high stress and makes my depression bad. I mean what does he expect me to say that even if things are going great I will never have a depressive episode? Because I can't. I manage much better without my current job which I will leave in December. But still I mean it isn't always a thing that causes the depression. I have to always work at it. I'm not perfect I can't fix myself to never be sad or depressed. If I could or there was some magic pill I would but there isn't.

I just want to hide and not talk to anyone. What's wrong with me? I'm trying. I thought I was doing good. Apparently not.

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