my DBT group was a place i could go to feel safe.
then the leader changed and it became a trigger. she is the worst psychologist i've ever worked with. i can't stand her. she's mean.
in one of my manic episodes,which she did NOT handle well, i told her that if i kill myself it's her fault.
i was just finally diagnosed with rapid-cycling bipolar1. after 5 years of struggling.

but now, i don't know what to tell my boyfriend.
we've been together for 14 months. we live together and have 2 pets together.
he says he loves me no matter what. but i feel selfish in the relationship. and i can't please him sexually at all. he's 22, and insatiable and i have no sex drive.

help

**sorry if this is nonsensical, I'm hypomanic at the moment. my thoughts are racing. it took me almost an hour to type this