I don't know whether I am posting at the right place but here goes. Looking back at the reason why the past 8 years of my life got totally "screwed up", I feel that it is all because I am a people-pleaser. I'll do anything for someone who can convince me that all they have are best interests for me.
I gave up my actual dreams of designing and got into engineering for my parents. I then gave up countless friends and other things for people who claimed to love me and then they left. I gave up my higher studies and went to a job I didn't think much of for a person I loved, and he left too. Over and over I've been giving in to my anger and guilt and people manipulate me into doing what they wish by using all this.
And now, I am stuck without going out and getting my career up, all for a person I love, for the sole reason that he makes me feel guilty over my past errors.
I am so sick of living for others. I am 23. If I don't do what I wish for now, when can I ever? How on earth can I change my life around?