I'm sorry that things are in a mess right now. I see myself and my situation in your post. A friend pointed out behaviors that were preventing me from getting help. He was worried so he spoke plainly to me knowing that I wouldn't like what I heard and would be very annoyed with him. And I was. At the same time I knew he was right and it was enough to get me moving in the right direction. I am sharing what he told me with you and I am hoping you accept this post in the spirit in which it is intended. You are very depressed and in no condition to study or take exams. Please consider withdrawing from the classes and taking a semester off to focus on your health. The college website will list the person or department that helps students in crisis. Because you are in crisis. Your post lists the obstacles in your way of getting therapy. The reasons seem valid to you because you're depressed. I know because my obstacles seemed very valid to me. Please don't let confusion over an address stop you from getting help. Ask your parents to research it for you. It sounds like they're very worried about you. The other obstacles you list are projections of what might happen. I know because I do it too. Not all therapists take summer vacations and they arrange for coverage if they do take a week or two off. You may not have to change therapists. Some therapists will conduct sessions over the phone (maybe Skype). You may not want to move back to the apartment. Or your brother and his girlfriend may want to make the temporary change permanent. It was very difficult for me to walk away from a job I loved because I waited too long to get help. I lost the job but college will be when you're well enough to return. Sorry the post is so long. Now it's time for me to work on a few obstacles of my own. Take care. I wish you the very best.