I understand where you are coming from about not wanting to get into the mental health system locally because of work. I work as a PCT in mental health and I am friends with 3/4 of the mental health workers in my area. I don't really want them knowing my own health issues.

However you can't put your own mental health on the backburner because of embarrassment. I would look at making a trip to the next major health system. Your own health is too important!