I am completely out of Ideas on what to do anymore. I am hurting so much that the pain has taken over my life! The meds aren't helping and I am getting so depressed because I feel so helpless at times. I used to be VERY active and now I am lucky to even leave the house. I once was a Nurse/Paramedic, a Captain for a Search & Rescue Unit and now I am NOTHING! I have two beautiful daughters and it kills me that i can't go out and play with them. I'll never again be able to take them hiking or camping. I seem to be trapped in a cruel and endless cycle. I am getting so depressed that I am worried that I am just shut myself out of reality and be doomed to sit here and rot! I just don't know what to do anymore!!!