Hi Snow. I am much older than you are. I was not diagnosed until I was 36! And then it was the wrong dx. I went on for many years before a doc figured out I have Bipolar 1.

I had two melt downs, and many hospitalizations.

The best thing I ever did was leave jobs that were not a good fit. While at awful jobs, I had terrible depression. After my last melt down, I had to give up a career I loved. I can identify with a lot you wrote about.

Please continue to stay on PC and blog along with us. There are so many good people here who really understand, and are not judgmental.

I know what you mean when you say you want to quit life. I have often felt the same. But I have managed to hang on and survive. You will too. You are so young, there is time for you to job hunt and get a better career started. What your supervisor did is so unethical. In the US, you could get a major law suit from it.

I am sorry you don't have a Pdoc right now. How about a therapist? I have both. The doc visits are short and just meant to give med treatment, or make referrals. My therapist is the one who gives me an hour of his time (50 min. most of the time - but if he does not have anyone coming in after me he lets the time run over). Seeing my therapist is the most valuable part of my treatment.

Keep posting here, and do your best to get through each day, just one day at a time. For me, sometimes it's hour by hour! Hope to see more of your posts. Viv.