I recently recovered memories of
serious child abuse inflicted mainly,
but not exclusively, by my mother and
shared everything with my T this week.
I now feel the rage trying to get out,
but I'm terrified to let it loose.
My open wounds are still raw.
I won't be seeing my T again until late
June and I'm feeling stranded.

The problem with me is if I get angry I
have a tendency to get very suicidal.
If I let the anger out even a little,
I get suicidal thoughts. It scares me
because I've attempted suicide before.
I wish I was seeing my T more often
to discuss this but I'm on my own.

Does anyone have any advice
on letting the anger out safely.