I get it and often feel the same way. Constant incredible pain is a life destroyer. I'm reading a great book right now about confronting chronic pain. Maybe a look on amazon or in a local bookstore will help you find some books that will offer some options. Also talk with you primary doc about how you are feeling. There may be some more options that you are unaware of. Also if you aren't seeing a therapist I highly encourage you to find one. Ask your primary doc for a referral to someone that knows about chronic pain. You aren't alone. Your life isn't at an end. You are most certainly NOT nothing! Your life has worth and great value. I'm hoping you can find some ways to live above the pain! Don't give up!