I cut because it releases endorphins and those make me feel better.. though only for a second. Afterwards I end up feeling worse about myself, yet I keep going back. Sometimes I also feel like it justifies why I feel the way I do... depression is interesting in that you can't tell how deeply someone is hurting by just looking at them. Cutting externalizes my pain and justifies it somehow.

That being said, please DO NOT start cutting. I have needed to cut deeper and deeper each time in order to get the same rush. My scars are permanent, and have made for some awkward conversations.