I'm glad you were able to see your doctor.

Masquerade - it is tough...

I'm a big fan of most of Andrew Lloyd Webbers musicals. Phantom has a song that I've always identified with...Here are some of the lyrics - I put it hear not to pull everyone down, but to feel...feel the music and the parallel with my own life and maybe others? Comment in parenthesis are my interpretation...

Masquarade

Maquerade! Paper faces on parade
Masquerade! Hide your face so the world will never find you (thin, fragile, the illusion we hide behind)
Masquerade! Every face a different shade
Masquerade! Look around, there's another mask behind you.

Flash of mauve
Splash of puce
Fool and king
Ghoul and goose
Green and black
Queen and priest
Trace of rouge
Face of beast
Faces!
Take your turn, take a ride
On the merry-go-round
in an inhuman race
Eye of gold
Thigh of blue
True is false
Who is who?
Curl of lip
Swirl of gown
Ace of hearts
Face of clown
Faces! Drink it in, drink it up
Till you've drowned
In the light
In the sound
But who can name the face?

Masquerade! Grinning yellows, spinning reds
Masquerade! Take your fill, let the spectacle astound you
Masquerade! Burning glances, turning heads
Masquerade! Stop and stare at the sea of smiles around you
Masquerade! Seething shadows breathing lies
Masquerade! You can fool any friend who ever knew you
Masquerade! Leering satyrs, peering eyes
Masquerade! Run and hide, but a face will still pursue you.

at the end of the musical:

Masquerade . . .
Paper faces on parade . . .
Masquerade . . .
Hide your face
so the world will
never find you . . .