I'm having my first evaluation since starting treatment last June 2013 and starting meds Oct. 2013. I am getting very anxious. What should I expect? I am hoping I can be honest and not too overtly positive as my situation is no better than when I started. In fact it may be worse. Since starting Depacote, it has brought me down slightly to a point that I have given up finding work and I am desparate to pull in some income or I'll be walking to therapy at 6 miles one way, 4 miles to grocery store, 6 miles to Wall Mart, etc. I haven't worked in 3 years and am getting desparate.

The only thing better is I haven't had my rifle out practicing on myself like I did prior to medicine, but it has crossed my mind once or twice. I haven't tried any jobs that I couldn't handle to get into that dispair, so I don't know if it's my medicine helping on that or if it's the lack of having a real life. Jobs for me have always been my life, my life support, my focus, my everything. After all without money there's no sense in breathing.

Anyone want to come finish me off? I promise I won't get mad.