Hi zinco, no it makes sense that you might be anxious it is a long trip and maybe part of you is worried that you might not manage it after how you've felt in the past before your improvement.
OK we've thought of one understandable reason why you might be anxious (if you want to think of some more fine- because you're not irrational!! ). But now we've got a reason, hey, we've lots of reasons to challenge that anxiety, right??!!
You are feeling so much better than you were in the past, plenty of evidence for that!!;
You've done the distance before probably feeling "not so good" even (?);
It's not going to be such a long way with breaks/timeout along the way, just stages and relatively short distances between stops;
You're reaching out for support more now than in the past aren't you, so if it's getting tough, now you can reach out. You're not going to be on your own at any time, support's out there;
You've something meaningful at the end of the journey to focus on, and I'm guessing meaningful has taken on a more significant feeling since you've improved. So a real focus, hey?;
And look at what you have been able to do since you've been feeling better (!!), whole lot more to you than you're thinking, right??!!
Want me to go on??
So, no, you're not being irrational and what better place to start with that and putting those anxieties back where they belong- more out of your head. Challenge them/disprove them/show them you don't need them now, you've got things covered!! They're just faking!!
You can do it!!
Here for you
Alison