(((Lmciyah))) Remember that your job is to be working on getting well, not to make your therapists/psychiatrists feel good about themselves. I assume they will be asking questions about how you are doing. And I suggest you tell them just what you are telling us. Not getting any better, in fact seems to be getting worse, job loss, wanting to end life, etc. They need to know, so they can make changes in your treatment. That is their job--to help you to get better!

I don't think any of us want to finish you off. We want you to live, to come here to post, and to get better! Okay? We care!