Lamictal, Abilify, and Adivan. I think i am falling in the same camp as Crubba67 when I say that i feel almost monotonous now. I feel like whenever I have an emotional spike, it hits even harder than when I was not on medication because now theres this mono-tone emotional state between. I want to feel things again but I don't want to feel crazy.

It's such a hard thing, finding a "cocktail" but is that really a good way to refer to medication? Medication is't a sedater or something you have at the end of a long day, its a tool on the road to feeling and living in a healthy way.