my father had this, too but wasn't diag. until I was (I was 46, he was in his 70s) He could go from being the most fascinating person on earth (he was an explorer, a mountain & a glacier are named after him) to being hateful. Told me over & over to kill myself, beat me. But then switched back & would say I was a genius & to never listen to him. SO confusing
But the worst thing about this is that I had so much promise but didn't live up to it. I was a "child prodigy." Reading well at 4 years old, started 1st grade age 4. Wrote a book when I was 5. Teachers & other adults always telling me "you'll go far, you're so creative, so bright." And I got 3 bachelor's degrees. But couldn't finish master's level degree. Drifted from job to job. Have a good marriage but we are struggling due to me having to quit work b/c I just couldn't handle the noise, stress, etc.
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Originally Posted by wachiki92
For me it was that I have the same diagnosis as my birth mother- but shes bipolar I where im bipolar II. she is an evil woman and my sisters and I went through hell. Ive never wanted anything in common with her at all. sometimes I have seen her in myself and my actions. Thats something that has always scared me. The relationships ive severed or had to rekindle come in at a close second though.
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