i had sort of fun day. i went shopping again. at a different mall. with my mom this time. she didnt make too big of a deal about my weight this time. a little bit. but it wasnt too bad. my mom asked about these belts in mens sections and this cute employee guy showed off his own belt he bought from the store. he lifted up his shirt. i was like omg. not only did i do a double take but i did a TRIPLE take. i hope he didnt see me do that. his stomach was so flat and hot. naked guys are so hot.

anyway i didnt have too bad of a time driving but i had a little paranoia at the mall. ive been smoking cigarettes like a chimney. its cause im so stressed about my weight. its been 3 months and i have gotten out of the 130s. i keep fluctuating. plus im stressed about my dad working. so stressed. i worry about this. a lot.