hi this might sound really stupid and just totally unnecessary but i just can't seem to get over my first kiss. Im 13 and to me a first kiss is supposed to be very special but mines wasn't. Here's what happened it was the weekend before we started finals(on a friday) my friends and i decided to play truth or dare so they dared me to kiss my friend Lans at first i was like no like never but then i don't know what came over me i just did it. Fast forward to friday after school i come home and I'm like "did i really just do that" and then i jurist burst out crying i was zoo upset and disappointed with my self i cried for like how many hours my eyes were really red and puffy i just had so much regret and i wish i could talk it all back but i can't its haunting me. i try to forget it but it just comes back and i can't concentrate its like I'm gonna fall apart. i can't tell my mom because she would obviously shout at me but anytime i see her i just feel like I've let her down and i start crying.Ive talked to my cousin about it and she said i should just move in but i can't.Ive always been a very emotional person so this is just killing me inside. like how am i supposed to move on from this? i believe that i have an anxiety problem so it just makes it much worse for me even though i haven't talked to anyone about it. I just wan to be able to move on and be normal again thats whats killing me if i would ever get back to how i was. i look at old pictures and I'm like i used to be so happy and i start crying because i was really stupid. I knw i'll never forget it but please just help me move on.