Knowing what I am capable of and yet living within the bounds of what I can cope with is what I find treally tough.

It affects every decision I make, for I have to question whether I am prepared to pay the price for going outside what I can cope with or prepared to say no and live with the disappointment I feel within myself......but continue stable and able to cope.

They say there is no shame where there is no choice....I feel shame though. I feel like I need to justify to myself that I cant cope, justify yo others why I say no....yet appear able. Truth is I didn't have a choice, I have BPD. But I daily have to choose how easy I make it for myself to manage the monkey that shares my mind....

I find that hard. .....

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