Wow. Jaw was dropped through most of that. Then the jaw dropped even more at the 60 mile bike. 'o.O In the last week, I've biked 44 miles, but 60 miles in one day? The most I've done in a day is 12.4 miles, although on an exercise bike, 8/8 setting, but still! Jesus, that's impressive. EDIT: actaully, that's the recent most, but the mostmost was 16 or so miles, but I think I took a quick breather mid-way, because my glutes were sore! lol

Anywho, ... this is just my opinion: recovery isn't always about speed and strength like it can be when we workout, ... sometimes it's more the opposite; sometimes it's just a case of taking it one step at a time, something you haven't really done. :P Dude, you went full-steam ahead, and that's great if you're working out, sorta, but not so great when you're dealing with something as sensitive as mental health. The good news is that you want to get better; that drive will probably ultimately end up with you being a better person for it. I wish I had your conviction.

I think I can understand the thing about the personal trainer, even though I've never had one; I've always done that kinda thing alone, ... the only thing close to a personal trainer I've had, is my step-mother, who's a qualified fitness instructor so of course, I've gone to her for tips. xD I must admit, if I didn't have her, I'd be at a loss! But, yeah, there's something about someone support you through those times, that kinda connects on a different level, right? Or am I imagining that? I just know IF I had a personal trainer (part of me has always wanted one) I would definitely be gutted if they left or something, after accomplishing so much because of them.

Anyways, take it easy, ... one step at a time, Johnny.