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My fiancé and I have been together for almost 2yrs now, were together 5yrs prior, and neither of us had been with anyone in between. We both want the same things in life- family, more kids (I already have one who he sees and treats as his own anyway), hopefully buy a house in the future, etc, etc.
Things haven't been easy because of a work injury 8months ago and the effect that has had on his mental health but he hasn't said anything about it to me until the other day, and even then all I got was that he's been depressed.
On top of that I have depression, PTSD, and severe anxiety. I suck to be around at times but when he won't talk to me it's a hell of a lot worse because then I get angry.
If we have a problem that I want to talk to him about he ignores me or distracts himself with his phone or xbox and he just doesn't talk to me about anything. So what starts out as something small that could easily be resolved ends up becoming this huge issue that leads to me exploding.
I am completely aware of this and I am working on changing my own behaviours because, aside from them frustrating him, they drive me bonkers!
But now I have his friends attacking me and telling him he should leave because I'm a b**** and that I'm ruining his life. One of these friends is medicated for depression and anxiety herself and still said "Please, go shoot yourself" (that is a direct quote). That was only the start from her but all together it has made me feel suicidal.
I have spoken to my fiancé about their behaviour and explained to him that it is not ok and I don't understand how he can stand by and say nothing to them when he knows their horrid attitudes are making me want to kill myself. To me that is him condoning their behaviour and being perfectly ok with his friends making me feel suicidal.
These friends don't know what's going on, they are purely making assumptions and attacking me for it when our relationship is none of their business anyway. And from what I have copped over the last few days they don't actually seem the least bit interested in what my fiancé wants, they are just pushing their own feelings, thoughts, and agendas on him because they don't like me.
I've been nothing but nice to these people (until they chose to attack me because I won't tolerate being abused ever again) and they still seem to hate me without even knowing me.
Am I wrong in thinking he should at least stick up for me and tell his friends to back off? That making his fiancé feel this way is not ok?
I'm not asking him to agree with me or even them, and I'm not asking him to choose between his friends and I- I've actually had to push him to make time to catch up with these friends- but I do expect that, as someone who swears they love me, he would find anyone making me feel this way to be unacceptable.
And how the heck can I get him to start talking to me?
I know it's difficult for him to talk to anyone but it's hard for me too- my entire life I've been told to shut up because no one wants to listen to me but I'm still trying because I want this to work.
He says he wants this to work too and, most of the time, his actions do back that up. But as far as his friends and talking to me go there's pretty much nothing.
I don't know what to do any more and I'm sick of feeling like this. I'm sick of spending everyday so anxious that I need Valium to calm down.
Any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated because I'm at a complete loss as to how to deal with this without causing more problems.
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