Among other problems, I have an issue with my sexuality that makes me a bit confused. Im a 21 year old male. Growing up as a kid I always thought I was straight, but always had a worry that I might be gay etc. I had a gay experience when I was 12 and it caused some depression and anxiety about sex and masturbation during my high school years. Ive never been in a relationship, and have only had sex with one person a few times when I was 19. That person was a female. I guess I enjoyed it, but there was a lot of anxiety surrounding it. Over the past couple of years Ive had a romantic attraction to a guy and came out due to it. Those feelings are gone now however. I definitely find I have sexual attraction to both sexes, but I don't really have a huge desire to actually have sex with people, there is anxiety there, but there is also an element of just not feeling into it. I definitely want to have a sexual or romantic relationship with someone but I just dont feel as if I connect with people in that way. Im not really sure how to describe my sexuality and I feel as if most women wouldnt be interested in me as I do have gay tendencies haha. I definitely feel more attracted to people romantically as i get to know them more, but they arent really sexual attractions. I just don't know whether this lack of being able to/wanting to get close to people is something that can be cured or if its just who I am. and the actual label of my sexuality I feel limits me at times. Casual sex is something that Im not against, but I just never feel attracted enough to people to be able to have sex with strangers. And when it comes to sexual attraction I would say just nudity in general turns me on, and maybe even myself somewhat, but its not gender specific.
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