I had a dream that I was self harming last night and now that I'm awake it's all I want to do. My cousins wedding is coming up so I can't because I don't want to be at a wedding with cuts but oh I want to cut. I miss it and I think about it so often and I have so many reasons why I think I should but that stupid wedding.
It's also kind of funny how my dad wants to kick me out so I want to cut but I'm afraid if I cut he'll kick me out... Oh I don't know all I know is I've been laying in bed for nearly two hours daydreaming and debating it.