Hi Catastrophic. I understand what it's like to hide your feelings. I do the same thing. I just don't want to burden anyone with my emotions. I'm trying something new. I read a book long ago about self hypnosis. So far I have cut it to half with my cigarette smoking. It's easy to put your self under. Just make sure you make a key word to get back out. Maybe you can try it. It takes practice, but it is well worth the effort.

One other thing you might try is stand up comedy. I bought a 5 disk set of Dane Cook.
He is so funny. Even if I just chuckle, it sets the mood for the day. Best wishes to you and yours.

Piraeus