Hi. I'm a compulsive gambler and I am tired of robbing peter to pay paul and living in such distress over financial worries that I finally had to admit to myself, "you are sick!" My daughter is taking me to the casino today so I can ban myself and now I have to sit over an excel spreadsheet for hours figuring out how I'm going to make my finances work over the next couple of months until I can get back on track (I've been doing this for two years). I'm sick with self-disgust, self-loathing, hiding, payday loans, etc. I gambled away our new roof money, money to pay off credit card debt, used student loan money...it's just awful. Sure I've "won" a couple of times but I've lost thousands upon thousands of dollars feeding this sick addiction for a few hours of thrill seeking. All the pit bosses know my name and one has even said he's worried about me. I've made "friendships" with other addicts and it's all just such a crappy way of life and I wouldn't wish this suffering on anyone.