I'm pretty sure she probably has major abandonment issues. Her own mother died when she was just a toddler and when she was 13 she got passed off to relatives who I think probably abused her sexually.

She either doesn't know or won't admit that there's something wrong with her. In fact, if you met her, she would seem completely normal and she would tell you that I exaggerate everything. She claims she doesn't have a violent bone in her body in spite of the evidence that proves otherwise.

I'm okay with that. I don't need validation or remorse from her. I learned long ago that would never happen because of her illness. I don't have a relationship with her either simply out of self-preservation.

I would give anything for our relationship to be normal, but I know it will never happen unless she can sit and talk with me about the past in a respectful, mature way. I don't hate her, I still love her very much. I sometimes think it would be so much easier if I didn't.