Hate my scars? Not so much. I look at them and I'm reminded of the anger, hurt, pain, etc that they represent. My sh was a coping mechanism for me. I wish I had known other methods. Harming represents a lot of pain and self loathing. For me I screamed for help as best as I could.

I will be 61 years old this month and started cutting in my middle teens. My skin is getting thinner as I am aging and the scars show more than ever. They are permanent, never to go away. I look at mine and I remember every episode of anger, depression and hate. So sad. Most every cut required stitches. Deep, fatty, dark blood cuts.

I love me better now. I love stage blood at Halloween. I make all kinds of wounds and it looks great without the harm.

So, no need to start. It's addictive, pick something else that's healthy. You just don't have to do this. Hugs and love for you and your pain.