I have always had to cling onto someone. I am too shy and depressed to be my own person to be able to function in society. What makes me sick to my stomach and beyond terrified... I feel like my heart is going to explode. I can`t function on my own. I have no friends because I am not a human, I am just an empty severely depressed person who looks up suicide everyday and cries everyday. I am completely empty and have been for years.

I am clinging onto my Mom. But she won`t be here forever and I can`t continue life without her. I can`t. I don`t know what to do. I am sick and ****ed up and I don`t want to live this life. I am paralyzed with no love or feeling other than the nightmare feeling of realizing I`ll be on my own and I can`t. I can`t do it.

Living is too hard. You need to have interests and hobbies in order to live. I have nothing. Literally nothing. So I find living impossible. What the hell am I suppose to do?!?!?!