You are not pathetic May, you are human. You are going to make mistakes, it's one of the "benefits" of humanity. You're right, you've shut the door on what you've done. it's behind you. 3-4 times a wk does not have to extend to forever, you can control this. You are a strong person and the fact that you could post this shows that. Is there a T that you can talk to about this?
(((((mayflower))))