I fantasize about T having a life that isn't filled with negative thoughts. I'm envious of the idea that she floats through life positive, upbeat and not thinking she's worthless and death would be preferable. She struggles with the same things as all of us; fitting appointments in, making it to her kid's recital, eating dinner as a family, spending a weekend doing chores versus what she wants to be doing.... So in that regard she's like every other human and likely, she has negative depressive thoughts just like anyone else. But, hey, this is a fantasy so yeah, I'm jealous that she doesn't get bogged down in her own head like I do.