Again your experiences echo my own, and I am obsessively yearning for a sense of being "myself"? I find it really hard to even describe in words, but this last 3 months I have also been in a ridiculously roller-coaster ride of mood instability. I am truly at my wit's end with myself??!!

And forget relationships lately. I've been just all over the place. I'm looking into a residential treatment facility, but am hesitant because I think I need help, serious help, with specific aspects of how this disorder affects me. I just don't have the support in my life and somehow know I can't do this alone?