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Originally Posted by Hbomb0903
Again your experiences echo my own, and I am obsessively yearning for a sense of being "myself"? I find it really hard to even describe in words, but this last 3 months I have also been in a ridiculously roller-coaster ride of mood instability. I am truly at my wit's end with myself??!!
And forget relationships lately. I've been just all over the place. I'm looking into a residential treatment facility, but am hesitant because I think I need help, serious help, with specific aspects of how this disorder affects me. I just don't have the support in my life and somehow know I can't do this alone?
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You can do this,Hbom0903. I've had to get a lot of help and do it on my own. When I had my break 3 years ago and I lost everything, I also lost my family and friends. My daughters weren't even speaking to me. You see I had had a really serious suicide attempt and know one understood nor did they try because they were just so angry at me and some even felt I was attention seeking.
I knew then more than ever how badly I needed the right kind of help and threw myself into it, doing whatever it took. It was the absolute worst period of my life.
I took every opportunity that presented itself because, well... I couldn't seem to be able to kill myself so there was only one alternative and I'm grateful to have found it.
My quality of life is so much better now. I've had a lot of therapy and have done some residential treatment.
I still struggle and still not able to work but I'm getting there. It's a slow process but it's worth it.
You go and do this, my friend. I promise you it'll change your life for the better.
