I'm really scared of accepting flashbacks, I know the worst is over, but I worry I may hurt myself during a flashback. Don't want to go in any detail as it may be triggering, but I know that if I lose control I'll end up in the ER.

I've already tried listening to music, made a special playlist and all, but i absolutely can't sleep without my earplugs. I wish I could as it would make things much easier, but the slightest noise scares so much at night...

And yes, I hope someday I'll be able to go to sleep without it being such a big deal.