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Originally Posted by Jordy
I'm really scared of accepting flashbacks, I know the worst is over, but I worry I may hurt myself during a flashback. Don't want to go in any detail as it may be triggering, but I know that if I lose control I'll end up in the ER.
I've already tried listening to music, made a special playlist and all, but i absolutely can't sleep without my earplugs. I wish I could as it would make things much easier, but the slightest noise scares so much at night...
And yes, I hope someday I'll be able to go to sleep without it being such a big deal.
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Your fear of accepting flashbacks is a symptom. It's the disorder. That voice keeps you from being healthier. I hope soon you won't listen to it and will find solutions, tools to take good care of yourself if you fear self-harm, a definite priority a good trauma t should be able to work on with you sooner than later. I know there can be a lag between opening up about trauma and being able to deal with it, so I'm sorry it's so rough right now.